I live every day under the shadow of what I did. There are no words that can fully capture the weight of my actions or the depth of my regret. I took a life, and with it, I extinguished everything that person was and everything they could have been. And nothing I do can ever bring them back.
I betrayed someone who trusted me. I turned friendship into tragedy, and in that one act, I destroyed more than one life. I shattered a family, took away laughter, love, memories that were yet to be made. I left a wound that will never truly heal.
There is no justification for what I did. None. I cannot explain it away or paint myself as a victim of circumstance. I made a choice, and that choice took away everything from someone who did not deserve it. And that is a truth I must carry forever.
I think about them every day. Their absence is deafening, a silence that follows me everywhere I go. I see the void they left behind, the people who mourn them, the lives that were shattered because of my actions. I see it, and I cannot escape it. I should not escape it.
I am sorry. Those words feel so small compared to the pain I caused, the lives I ruined, the person I took away. But it is the truth. I am sorry, and I will carry that sorrow with me for the rest of my life.
I do not ask for forgiveness. I do not deserve it. But I need you to know that I understand the gravity of what I did. I live with it every day. I wake up with it, and I go to sleep with it. It follows me, haunts me, reminds me that nothing I do will ever be enough to atone for it.
I am sorry. For the pain, for the loss, for everything that could have been but never will be because of me. I am so deeply, endlessly sorry. And I will carry that with me to the end of my days.
I write this not to seek absolution, but to acknowledge the truth. To accept the consequences of my actions. To admit that I did this, that I took a life, that I am responsible.
I hope, one day, that those I hurt find peace. I hope that they heal, even if I cannot. And I hope that, in some small way, my remorse matters, even if it is too late to change what I did.
I am sorry. That is all I have left to say.
– Anonymous, currently incarcerated
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